watch me pace my mind trying to figure out the confines of reality
existence without purpose, what's the point? what did humans live for before money to motivate them into obtaining desires? was it the capability of desire, or an innate survival instinct?
why is there a built in self preservation? what's the point of that and surviving, if there is nothing to survive for - what reason is there to innately need to live? every living being has it, regardless of level of consciousness. every animal besides the human goes on living, only based on instinctual behaviours, some animals an exception who will act in ways that derive enjoyment as people do (crows).
animals exist for themselves - just for the sake of living they carry on, and i suppose there are many humans who, despite human capability of the consciousness of desire, live in such a way as well.
but why? what's the point?
if you break it down even further, every bit of nature follows that principle; grass holds no thought or instinct, and yet it will grow between concrete poured upon it, trees will disregard the porch of the abandoned house it's growing, crashing through.
and if you go deeper than that, descending the levels of consciousness: human, animal, plant, the ecosystem delicately balancing everything off of each other, then that's the planet itself.
is that the point?
i can't go any further.